I know where my physical body is today but mentally I feel like I’m all over the place. I can sense the black mood and the yawning abyss it inhabits all too clearly, it’s almost tangible today, perched just behind me and I need to focus every second. I feel like the hero in a horror movie who knows if he turns and looks back at the monster behind, he’s lost utterly. I don’t NEED this, this week of all weeks. I need the world and the class not to be too rough today and be kind, I’m feeling very fragile.